My Body Is Such A Tease…

Only 2 weeks ago, I was unable to walk without the aid of a walker, cane, or wheelchair when I went out of the house, and my hands were completely useless because of the nerve damage. Then I got my fire back and decided I’m not going to just let shit happen. I started to regain the strength in my legs, keeping my hands warm and moving so they didn’t get stiff. After a few days, I was walking…slowly and with Bee guiding me…but up and walking. I was motivated and stoked to be getting back to my old self!!

This setback isn’t going to change any of this, but it freaking me out a bit and its just one more thing to have to check into. It’s kinda screwing with my mind a bit. Being honest, its scary and bringing back some ongoing fears that I’ve had to deal with for the last 23 years.

Bluntly (guys, you may want to skip this part if you’re squeamish about lady part stuff)… I started bleeding again. I haven’t had a period in 23 years, since November of 1996 when I had a radical hysterectomy for endometrial addenocarcinoma. Simply put, uterine cancer. The signs I had at that time were abnormal bleeding, pain with sex, and severe abdominal cramping. Fast forward to 2016. The similar symptoms happened. It was due to a uterine cancer recurrence. I’ve had some cramping for the last few days but tonight, I started bleeding again.

I’m trying very hard not to get too hyper and just be rational about it. I’ve had bleeding in the past. When I called my gynecologist oncologist, she told me to go to the ER is I have to change my pad more than twice an hour. By the time you see as much as she has, a little blood didnt phase her. This has happened maybe 3-4 times in the last 3 years and everything was fine.

So, for now, I’m going to go about my life, try to loose all the weight I gained from steroids, and work on getting back behind the wheel!

Get busy living or get busy dying…